The Big Eraser

It’s chemo weekend and his fatigue is kicking in. When they talk about fatigue as a side effect of chemotherapy they don’t really explain what it’s like. If you haven’t had chemo or haven’t seen someone on chemo you might think this means they get really tired. It’s so much more than that. It is as if a big eraser comes and starts to rub the person away. They get sleepy, yes and dull, yes. But they also fade and their edges get blurred. It’s not like this is a tired person but more like the person is gradually disappearing. It’s lonely and a little scary. There is a body here but not really a person.